2 Cents

With the election growing ever closer I decide to take to my blog for the first time in a long time. I hope the people of this country will make the best decision they can. But I don’t know if that will happen. I know my opinion probably isn’t worth much, but I hope it may bring some insight to others who are still unsure. In the beginning I was a Bernie Sanders supporter, but that doesn’t seem to be an option now.

I feel that Trump would be a true embarrassment for this country. A sexual pervert who moonlights as a sexual predator, a man whose fortune was founded by becoming a chronic liar and scamming normal people, and a hair piece with more intelligence than he has; not even a choice for me. I think the first final straw for me was when I read in the beginning of the election that Trumps’ plan for our country’s debt was to default on it!

Hilary isn’t much better. I agree with some of her ideas, but after everything from Benghazi to the emails I don’t trust her as far as I could throw her. Yes it would be great if we had a female president, but Hilary has already been in the White House, she’s had her time.

I will be voting instead for Jill Stein since my state is not one of the few that accept Bernie write in’s. She’s second best to Bernie. Why think red or blue when green is an option?

And for most of the country I am sure issues like legalization of marijuana and raising minimum wage will be on your ballot. I know for my county it’s prop 205 and 206. Vote yes. Many people in this country could use the help of both of these issues. I know many people have hesitations on marijuana but if it is taxed and regulated there will be no need for a “black market” for underages or delinquents to use. Minimum wage should really be a no brainer, I know I am sick of working a full time job for barely livable wages.

Pot Barons?

Interestingly enough I found this article on a Facebook page, I am pretty sure it’s called Photography on Facebook. The picture I have attached is one from the photo essay that is on MSNBC. Here’s a link to the actually article.
Colorado Legalization

What really worries me about this article is it talks about how large businesses and corporations could cash in if they hop on the Legalize It train. I feel like it would help get something that could benefit mankind, I don’t even want to call it a drug, into common legal use. But the fact of it is it scares me that it will take big backers like Wall Street and large corporations to get it there. But I encourage you to read the article.

Waiting While Buzzed

I am sitting here in front of my laptop waiting for my boyfriend to pass out, playing music off of YouTube for him. I really don’t know why I haven’t enjoyed listening to music a lot lately. I guess I reserve music for when I am trying to be inspired and write. But other than that I like to watch my same old TV shows; like Futurama, The Venture Brothers, Ugly Americans and Archer. I never get bored of them.

But that being said I really love listening to Watsky. It’s what I have on now. I guess you could say I really relate to Watsky. He doesn’t seem like he’s been to a lot of extremes like other people (people like my boyfriend or my ex), like being homeless or addicted to drugs that were actually very harmful to you (meth, coke,┬áheroin, blah blah blah….) He seems pretty structured, if that makes sense in my drunken state.

Right now I am drinking some cheap Vodka with some Dr. Pepper. One of my favorites. Maybe if I drink enough I’ll sleep some tonight. Lately since I’ve been so stressed about maybe having breast cancer I haven’t been sleeping a lot. It’s pretty scary. I mean what would you do if you hadn’t really been legitimately planning for something like this for your life (my entire plan was to never take chemo therapy or radiation but just get my medical marijuana (kind of amazed I spelled that right the first time…) card and just be stoned as shit until my untimely or timely death, depending on how old I was when my cancer would be discovered.)? I mean I am 23 and I could have a life threatening disease. There’s so much I could do with my life if it isn’t cancer. I could go on to finish college, get my masters in Psychology against my father’s complaints, live in Oregon with my current boyfriend, maybe get married, have a kid or two (which has always been a big maybe in my life, if not more of a definite no….[I’ve never wanted kids really…]). What if it is cancer and I am too far too late to do anything about it and I am dead within a year or less?

Well my plans are travel as much as I can and before it can advance to far to just pain and awfulness go skydiving and never pull that damn cord. Just flip over on my back and stare at the sky and let that be the last thing I see, it would be awesome to go at night to be able to see all the beautiful stars. Maybe before that I would try to actually write a book and finish it. I’ve tried before, but I never fucking finish. I get like maybe 30 typed pages and get stuck. But I would try. I would. Just for my old roommate Shyanne. She really wanted me to finish one that was zombie related. Or I could go out The Fountain style where I tell the person closest to me and the story to finish it. Maybe I’ll watch that tonight. It’s a beautiful movie and story and I encourage anyone will a soul to watch it.

But back to my somewhat original point…I have been terrified I maybe pregnant. I am fairly certain I am not right now though. But if my inevitable end could be nearing what if I were? Honestly I’ve never really considered even having children until I’ve been with my current boyfriend, Randall. He’s sweet, loving and just amazing. Compared to some of my exes I am lucky to have him. Maybe it’s the alcohol talking but I love him and I wouldn’t mind having a child with him. I would hope to have a little girl with him and name her Rori, with an I at the end for my mom, Lori. God this is getting too emotional for me.

Things like this scary the living shit out of me. Truly. So I am going to stop now, once I find a cool picture to put into this post. I don’t even know what yet. Yes I Google my pictures! Don’t judge me! I know other bloggers do it too!

A Little Controversial

I am feeling brave today so why not post something with a little passion?
I’ll just make a list, I want to see how many things I can come up with.
1. Gay Marriage. Huge topic these days (or at least that how Facebook makes it look…) I am pro. In the words of Macklemore, “When everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless Rather than fighting for humans that have had their rights stolen I might not be the same, but that’s not important No freedom ’til we’re equal, damn right I support it.” (I love Macklemore. I really love underground, self producing artists like Macklemore, Mac Lethal and Watsky. If you’ve never heard of these guys go to youtube immediately! Please.) It seems like such a stupid thing to fight over. Who cares who or what an adult chooses to love. When it’s behind closed doors it doesn’t matter what 2 consenting adults do.
2. Abortion. Being raised very religious this topic scares the hell out of me. I am pro choice but I don’t like to think of it as an alternative to birth control or condoms or any other mainstream antipregnant choices. (I am pretty sure antipregnant isn’t a word, but you know what I mean.) The main reason I support freedom of choice is I am a young woman and if I were to become pregnant I know for a fact I am not ready for a baby. And yes I understand that there are alternatives like adoption, but do you have any idea what childbirth does to the human body? Yes, it sounds selfish but I’ll definitely pass on that. Plus if you catch a pregnancy in the very early stages you’re only getting a clump of organic cells, like a cyst or a tumor. Sorry bad analogy but pretty much the same thing.
3. Legalization of Marijuana. Again pro. There are way too many medical applications for it to not legalize. And plus look at how Colorado did it Continue reading